Bind My Wandering Heart to Thee

How beautiful is our Lord? How merciful are His ways?

This week, my prayer has simply been, "Jesus, please help me to fall more deeply in love with You." 

I am so prone to wander. So prone to leave my God and be bound by the ways of the world ...

I get caught up in the day to day worries...I wonder if I'm ever going to reach the dreams that are in my heart. I worry if I'll ever be able to make an impact in this world like the one that I know God wants me to make. I worry if I'm eating too much sugar. I get into bed and wish that I had made more time for a better workout. Some days it seems like I can't catch up with the potential that I see within myself. It's exhausting.

I wander away from my true identity. God sees me as His daughter. He wants me to live in that identity. To rest in His arms, to give my worries to Him. He calls me to be a woman who "is clothed with strength and dignity, and laughs without fear of the future" (Proverbs 31:25). 

Jesus doesn't see me as needing to get more disciplined in order to lose 5 pounds. He doesn't ask me to worry about the future.

You know what He wants? He just wants to be with me. He wants to be in relationship. He wants to be my first thought in the morning. He wants to be in conversation with me all day. He wants to take my worries, my anxieties, my unknowns, and hold them for me. He wants me to know that I am safe within His arms.

Self discipline isn't what He's after, because self mastery isn't actually a transformation, it's just a temporary solution. We sweep the floors and put away the dishes, but nothing actually changes at the heart (check out Luke 11 to see where this came from). When Jesus comes into our hearts, we are transformed. We don't require discipline to change because we are transformed at the heart. The change comes from the inside out, not the outside in.

The more deeply I fall in love with my Lord, the more that my life changes from the inside out. I become kinder to myself, I have unwavering hope, I'm more creative, I live with a lightness in me that is not of this world, fear becomes small.

My favorite hymn, "Come Thou Fount," has been in my heart all day. It reminds me that the struggles that I think I have are all just smoke and mirrors, the truth of who I am is LOVED. Jesus doesn't look at me and see my sins, He doesn't see anything to worry about. He sees my heart that is after Him. Have you ever been loved like that? Loved like you're already perfect? It makes you want to be better, it makes you feel safe, it changes you from the inside out. ❤

O to grace how great a debtorDaily I'm constrained to be!Let that grace now like a fetter,Bind my wandering heart to Thee.Prone to wander, Lord, I feel it,Prone to leave the God I love;Here's my heart, O take and seal it,Seal it for Thy courts above.